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Moving Day
Posted August 11th, 2009Sitting in the corner booth of the Old Town Diner, I've got today's paper spread out on the table and a yellow marker in hand – wanted, apartment for rent. I'm on my third cup of coffee when Terry walks in. He sidles up and places an arm around my shoulders. “Whatcha doin', Ruby, my jewel? You’re just the person I’ve been wantin' to see.”
I heave a sigh in his direction. “Trying to find some place to live. I don’t think I can take another minute with my mother.”
Regret is Looking into Your Mother's Mirror as the Summer Starts to Fade
Posted August 1st, 2009Jack lifts his head from the crook of his arm. Across the counter, he spies a bartender’s face reflected in the mirror behind shelves of liquor.
The bartender reaches for a bottle of Makers Mark, catches Jack’s eye, and winks.
Jack shifts his position on the bar stool. It has no footrest, and he struggles to stay upright on the hard, narrow seat, even though his long, thin legs almost touch the floor.
The bartender turns around. “Whoa, buddy, steady there. I don’t have to cut you off already, do I? You just got here.”
Regret - Final Installment
Jack stares at the white napkin in front of him on the counter. In a moment the image blurs until it dissolves into the white diamond tile of the backsplash in Ruby's small kitchen. She's standing at the stove, and Jack hears the sizzle of ground beef in the cast iron frying pan. He smells onions, peppers, garlic. Ruby's singing along with the radio. “What's my line? I'm happy...”
Regret - Eleventh Installment
The water splashes against stainless steel sides, filling the sink like a baptismal font.
“She looked great. She'd cut her hair short, really short – almost a man's cut, and she'd lost some weight. She seemed tired. Started telling me about her job. She'd been doing some volunteer work at the City Rescue Mission, too. Believe it or not, she was even thinking about going to seminary. She wasn't dating anyone, and she joked about her temporary self-imposed stint of celibacy since she still believed sex was good for body and soul.”
Regret - Tenth Installment
Martin places another square napkin on the counter in front of Jack, and sets the glass on top of it. Once again, Jack turns the napkin so it resembles a diamond.
Regret - Ninth Installment
Martin replaces the remainder of the limes in the wire basket without cutting them. “It's the train, Jack.” He glances at the clock on the wall, and then reaches up and turns off the television. “2131 straight games. Amazing accomplishment, huh, Jack?” Martin slips a CD into a BOSE player sitting next to the liquor bottles.
“Down the mystic avenue....”
Martin closes his eyes, concentrating on the lyrics.
“And all the girls walk by.”
Regret - Eighth Installment
The crinkles around Jack's eyes deepen as he frowns in thought. “But it wasn't all raw, raunchy hard-core shit. Sometimes our sex was – what'd she call it? – transformative.”
Martin wipes down the inside of the sink. “You a church-going man, Jack?”
Regret - Seventh Installment
The bartender grabs a glass from a dish rack on his left. “Sure, Jack.” He opens the bin to the right of the sink, fills the glass half-full of ice, pulls out the soda gun, and fights to speak above the noise of the sirens. “Gas or no gas?”
Jack shakes his head. “What? Oh, .... Tap is fine, thanks.”
Regret - Sixth Installment
Jack's words become his black and red bike, flying around in circles at impossible angles. He puts down the bottle, and wipes his sweaty brow with wet fingers.
Regret - Fifth Installment
Cal Ripken takes a lap around the stadium. The crowd stays on its feet, cheering. Jack rotates the napkin until it looks like a diamond. “We broke up cause Ruby couldn't take my drinking.”
The bartender wipes the martini glass with a white dish towel, slightly frayed at the edges. He reaches up and places the clean glass on a rack hanging just above his head.